it really winds me up that i ever feel bad about myself. I’m not ugly and i have it so much better than so many people who live with horrible disfigurements or battle with weight and things like that. I shouldn’t be so ungrateful but then i do it sometimes. I hate myself for it.
I was just sat beeming and wanted to shout out some kind of horrifying catch phrase from Drag Race. Oops.
Tumblr has an obsession with pretty girls and fashionable things. There is only so much of that shit that i can take to be honest. It actually seems to bring my self esteem down quite a bit, which i don’t understand and i’m annoyed that i let happen, but it does so that’s that. I mean even being in this burlesque show qith Daisy has made me feel so rubbish about myself. She’s so beautiful and talented and i could never compare to that, even though i put in so much work to those shows she will always just have something i don’t. She doesn’t make me feel like this though, can i just point out. This is merely my horrid mind making me feel like this.
And i’ve subsequently lost quite a lot of follwers.
The reason i haven’t been on much is that i have been so busy at university. I never could have guessed how busy one person could be on a course that has 9 taught hours a week. And let’s face it i could have done more work this year.
Also some of the things i ever want to rant about are a bit too scary so i just can’t talk about them. Not even to this annonymous audience or in my own head, i usually just burst out in tears.
Anyway, i don’t want to abandon it so i’ll try harder.
i need to buy this game for my ps1 wahh.
I have almost finished this! So stuck on the last bit.
(Source: moltres)
Being on the internet in general makes me feel sad. Why is this?
you know what’s really weird? the fact that you’ll never actually be able to see yourself in real life. like you can see yourself in mirrors and reflections but you’ll never in your life see what you really look like
I think i look totally different in photos, in film, in the mirror, what other people say they see and what i can see of myself. It’s so strange. Does my brain change what i see?
(via fluffypaws)
